#4th Humanistic Reflection

A confession letter for God

Dear God,

Now I am writing all about you. I know that the word ‘you’ is not appropriate but I know you know that I am definitely respecting you most. God, someone asked me a lot about you and my conviction but it will not decrease my faith to you, I am promise. I have no rational answer to describe my faith to you. I do not know what I should write whereas you are an abstract, just like the wind; I can feel it but I can’t see it. I have my own faith and I do believe in God, I know you do. God creates me and I am here because you have an intention to do that. God already had settle plans for my life and no one can ruin it and guess what will happen to me. All the graciousness in this universe showed me that you have a power to create something huge and perfectly beautiful then why that’s should be a hesitation about God? I put no doubt on it.  I am Moslem, and the God I believe is Allah SWT. I do ‘Shalat’, fasting and read your love letter “Al-Qur’an”, that’s how I believe in God. I believe that Muhammad is the last prophet and Al-Qur’an is the guidance for me to live my life. When I saw the others whom exactly can see the presence of their God then I begin asking about you, God. Why I cannot see you meanwhile the others can? Sometimes I try to capture about your presence, but I am so sorry for my presumption to think about that. I often saw that many people used “him” to capture your presence, so is that you? Are you a man? I know that you are not woman and man also but sometimes I think that a man has more power than woman, just like you. In my mind I capture you as a big, very big man with white long hair, white long flowing robe, you are shiny and you are sitting on a cloud. That was very silly things to think, I know that. It’s too complicated to think about you in logical minds and I do not want to try to capture your presence again. Is it sin right? So, whatever people said and try to provoke me to put you in doubt, I swear that I will just close my minds from that. From the deepest of my heart I wish that I am belongings to lucky people who can see you God and also the sublime prophet, Muhammad SAW when my time comes.

Reflection as a teacher candidate

Through this reflection perhaps this course expected me to be a teacher who has open minded toward the diversity of religion.